Heaven's a heartbreak away
Hello World.
I know I am posting after so long but the second semester was a busy semester (we had 39 credits to complete and had two Department Introductory Courses (DIC) whereas the students of the other departments had to take only one DIC in this spring semester). A lot has changed since my last post. I've become more responsible, mature and efficient all thanks to the hectic routine we had this semester. On some days we had classes from 8:30 to 12:30 in the morning , then labs from 2 to 5; then NSS/NSO/NCC from 5:30 to 7 approximately (this time varied from activity to activity) and a CS lab again from 8:30 to 10:30. For some students who were a part of 'Advitiy' (the Student Satellite Programme, successor to 'Pratham'), they had their team meet from 10:30 to anytime after that, and then again classes from 8:30 the next morning (not that we used to sleep early :P ).
I was still an 'innocent' freshie at the start of the second semester and was not used to such a hectic schedule; had infi pains adjusting to the tough schedule (also due to the fact that we had to get up early in the morning whereas we had afternoon lectures in the first semester) but got used-to in the first month. After completely wasting the first semester (had a screwed up routine, no direction, used to bunk lectures (a lot) ), attending all the lectures (mentally also :P) gave me a lot of "Yeah, I've changed!" moments XD.
I got a 7.XX pointer in the first semester (I know it's bad) and was shaken. Shaken because not-so-driven students also managed to get an 8+, students who used to study just for grades. I always thought that, "Man, I know I'm smart and driven, where's the fault? ". I never saw a 7 pointer in the mirror. I spent the entire winters in introspection and boosting my morale up. I then recalled that ,"A tiger always takes a few steps back before making a leap". I believe that there are only two possibilities; either you are winning or learning. Heartbreaks are necessary for achieving something in life. I am grateful to god to have given me such a failure right at the start of a new phase of my life. I thank this early failure of mine for the 'new me' , for it has ignited a fire in me.
I realized my fault. I had changed. I studied 'just' before exams; and the 'just' means the night before (not even the day before) (for some courses like BB101, CH105 etc.) During the JEE times, I used to study to 'learn' and not for some result. I had surely changed.
Then begins the second semester. I had it in the back of my mind that I've to nail this semester. But, my main motive now was to learn, and not for some end result. I thoroughly enjoyed the courses and had a great time studying, all thanks to the awesome courses we had in this semester : PH108 (Electricity and Magnetism) , AE102 (Data Analysis and Interpretation), AE152 (Introduction to Flight Mechanics), CS101 (Introduction to Programming). I knew, whatever be the end result, I'll study only to learn and not for anything else. Now it was not about anyone else or to prove someone something, it was all about me. I aimed at becoming the best version of myself and am still doing so, while writing this. I got a 9.XX in the second semester; and not only a decent pointer, but I also achieved a sense of fulfilment that, "Yeah, I know my stuff." Nothing is impossible. You only require the right purpose and the right direction.
Cheers.
P.S. All of this was written way before than it is published. I kept it in the drafts and forgot to publish.
I know I am posting after so long but the second semester was a busy semester (we had 39 credits to complete and had two Department Introductory Courses (DIC) whereas the students of the other departments had to take only one DIC in this spring semester). A lot has changed since my last post. I've become more responsible, mature and efficient all thanks to the hectic routine we had this semester. On some days we had classes from 8:30 to 12:30 in the morning , then labs from 2 to 5; then NSS/NSO/NCC from 5:30 to 7 approximately (this time varied from activity to activity) and a CS lab again from 8:30 to 10:30. For some students who were a part of 'Advitiy' (the Student Satellite Programme, successor to 'Pratham'), they had their team meet from 10:30 to anytime after that, and then again classes from 8:30 the next morning (not that we used to sleep early :P ).
I was still an 'innocent' freshie at the start of the second semester and was not used to such a hectic schedule; had infi pains adjusting to the tough schedule (also due to the fact that we had to get up early in the morning whereas we had afternoon lectures in the first semester) but got used-to in the first month. After completely wasting the first semester (had a screwed up routine, no direction, used to bunk lectures (a lot) ), attending all the lectures (mentally also :P) gave me a lot of "Yeah, I've changed!" moments XD.
I got a 7.XX pointer in the first semester (I know it's bad) and was shaken. Shaken because not-so-driven students also managed to get an 8+, students who used to study just for grades. I always thought that, "Man, I know I'm smart and driven, where's the fault? ". I never saw a 7 pointer in the mirror. I spent the entire winters in introspection and boosting my morale up. I then recalled that ,"A tiger always takes a few steps back before making a leap". I believe that there are only two possibilities; either you are winning or learning. Heartbreaks are necessary for achieving something in life. I am grateful to god to have given me such a failure right at the start of a new phase of my life. I thank this early failure of mine for the 'new me' , for it has ignited a fire in me.
I realized my fault. I had changed. I studied 'just' before exams; and the 'just' means the night before (not even the day before) (for some courses like BB101, CH105 etc.) During the JEE times, I used to study to 'learn' and not for some result. I had surely changed.
Then begins the second semester. I had it in the back of my mind that I've to nail this semester. But, my main motive now was to learn, and not for some end result. I thoroughly enjoyed the courses and had a great time studying, all thanks to the awesome courses we had in this semester : PH108 (Electricity and Magnetism) , AE102 (Data Analysis and Interpretation), AE152 (Introduction to Flight Mechanics), CS101 (Introduction to Programming). I knew, whatever be the end result, I'll study only to learn and not for anything else. Now it was not about anyone else or to prove someone something, it was all about me. I aimed at becoming the best version of myself and am still doing so, while writing this. I got a 9.XX in the second semester; and not only a decent pointer, but I also achieved a sense of fulfilment that, "Yeah, I know my stuff." Nothing is impossible. You only require the right purpose and the right direction.
Cheers.
P.S. All of this was written way before than it is published. I kept it in the drafts and forgot to publish.
Nice one Naman
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